Friday, July 30, 2010

The Education of Professor Cullen by Sheviking













The Education of Professor Cullen


sheviking

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College professor Edward Cullen is thoroughly annoyed by his student Ms. Swan. Everything about her bothers him, and he longs for the semester to be over. But what happens when he meets her one night when they aren't in school? Lemons and naughty language



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In the year that I have been involved in fanfiction, I have come across many, many fics that have Edward and Bella in teacher/student roles.  Very few are successful.  The Education of Professor Cullen by sheviking is one of those.  Instead of having a shy, naïve Bella taken in by the older, wiser Edward, sheviking turns it around by having a Bella who is strong, confident, and sexy meet the reserved, bookish Edward who is suffering from an unfortunate dry spell and lack of confidence in the bedroom.

At the start of the story, Bella is one of Edward’s students.  She is a constant source of frustration to him; from the way she dresses to her attitude towards him in class.  Yet, he can’t stop thinking about her or talking about her to his brother, Emmett.  After a class discussion over the book Lolita, Edward starts to realize that his “frustration” over his student is not quite so innocent and may be an entirely different kind of frustration.

A chance meeting at Emmett’s bar, a ride home, and an invitation up starts what ends up being some very intense, very educational, and very hot times for Professor Cullen.




“The second the thought entered my mind I realized that I was already in trouble, because I felt Ms. Swan's hands on each side of my face and her body pressed against mine. And she felt naked.”


The Professor becomes the student, learning from the sexually adventurous Bella.




“Sex had never exactly been fun for me. It had been somewhat awkward and had left me feeling inadequate because I hadn't been able to show the woman that I was dating a good time. I had never had any problems rising to the occasion, so to speak, and I always finished but I was the only one in the bed who was satisfied when we were done. This girl was clearly used to enjoying herself, and that only made me even more apprehensive. What if she laughed at me because I didn't know how to touch her? All my knowledge and all my academic achievements didn't matter at all in her bedroom where I was a novice. She was looking up at me, obviously waiting for me to say something. Then she held up her hand in invitation and gave me a smile.”


You can’t help but feel for Edward.  Haven’t we all been that bumbling novice at one point in our lives?  Yet, Bella is a good teacher to Edward.  She not only shows him what she likes, but helps him learn what he likes as well.




“I pushed my finger all the way inside her and she moaned again. Her hands flew to my belt and five seconds later my pants and boxers were pooled around my ankles. She stroked my length firmly and I gasped before I kissed her deeply. She broke the kiss, turned around in my arms and took a step forward to lean on her desk. I watched in amazement as she arched her back and spread her legs in supplication. I was behind her instantly and lifted her skirt up to reveal her naked firm backside. My lips were on the side of her neck and my hands grabbed her breasts. I had never felt this uninhibited before and I wanted her with an urgency I had never experienced previously.”


Seventeen chapters in, the reader can see just how far Edward and Bella have changed.  He has come from a geeky bookworm that to a confident and sexy man.  Bella begins to change as Edward’s affection for her tears down her walls. It reveals a rather sensitive girl who is afraid of being hurt and hides that behind casual sex. These changes in both of them give Edward the strength to stand up for himself and to find something worth fighting for, namely Bella.  They started out as sex-buddies, but as the story evolves, you can see how the feelings between Edward and Bella change, even if they aren’t prepared to acknowledge them yet.

One of the funniest parts of the fic is when Edward’s parents come by to visit while Bella is over.  The very different reactions that Esme and Carlisle have over finding out their quiet, good son is involved with his student, ten years his junior, are priceless.

When Edward and Bella aren’t between the sheets (or on the couch or the floor, etc), they deal with the dynamics of their relationship.  He is still her teacher and has to learn how to compartmentalize what they have outside of the classroom in order to not show favoritism and get himself in trouble.  They also have to deal with what being in a relationship, even a sex-buddy relationship, entails.

This is the kind of fic I enjoy.  I love a good smutty fic like the next h00r, but I want a story too.  I want my porn to have a plot, damn it!  sheviking does not disappoint.  She balances the right about of sex and story to keep the reader interested and aroused.  I strongly recommend this fic to anyone who likes a story with her smut.  After reading some of the more arousing chapters, you may want to make sure your significant other is around to reap the benefits of sheviking’s writing.



It is no secret that I love a nerdy awkward Edward. This one has it in spades, but as I was chatting with my fellow Pervs about this story, I couldn’t help but point out that this Edward was socially awkward, but not socially retarded. He is just a guy who has lived a somewhat sheltered life. He has done what he has needed to do. I think he has enjoyed his solitude and study up to this point in his life. Edward has slept with a few women, but never was secure enough in himself for the experiences to be anything more than average. What he needed was liberating, and that is where Bella comes in.

I love the Bella in this story. She is sexually secure and seems to have a confidence about her. She is in your face from the first chapter. She doesn’t ease Edward out of his shell, she cracks that fucker open with a sledge hammer. The ironic thing in the end is that her shell cracks too, and as the story goes on, we see the abandoned girl behind the tough facade. We know a lot of her story of losing her parents, and eventually her grandfather caretaker, but there still seems to be a part of her vulnerability that we haven’t seen.

In a twist, as she softens, Edward gains his footing. It reaches it’s zenith in the latest chapter as our emotionally stunted Bella tries to flee:




Relief flooded through me. She didn't mean what she was saying. Isabella was a horrible liar or maybe I just knew her face so well that I could see it clearly. I walked over to her and made her look up at me.

"Tell me that you don't feel anything for me. Look me in the eye and tell me that this has just been sex to you and nothing more," I challenged her.

From the outside it might seem like I was taking a huge risk in putting Isabella on the spot like this but it didn't feel that way to me. I knew that she had feelings for me. She couldn't have faked everything that had happened in the last few days.

"I-"

She took a ragged breath and avoided my eyes. I lifted her chin and she met my gaze.

"I…don't f-feel anything f-for y-you," she stammered and her eyes overflowed with tears.

"Liar," I whispered and cupped her face in my hands.

"This w-was j-just…sex," she gasped as the tears ran down her face.

"Liar," I murmured and bent down to kiss her.

Her lips trembled against mine and she was completely rigid. I looked at her when I pulled back. All her actions this morning gave off the impression that she wanted to leave but I knew her now. She was sad and most of all scared. All she knew was being alone so she was trying to push me away again. I had no idea what had happened during the night to cause this dramatic shift in her, but I knew that she didn't mean what she was saying at the moment.

I had spent my entire life being afraid of the unknown, always sticking to my routine to avoid disorder and chaos. I knew fear when it stared me in the face and right now it was painted all over Isabella's beautiful features.

"Don't be scared," I whispered.


This story has taken a beautiful arch from pure physical pleasure to two people who should have never worked falling in love. As much as the lemons leaving me fanning myself, the rainbows and kittens are done with such a tender touch. Soft moments like the first time the shift occurred from sex to making love (see Nina's quote below).

In one final note, my favorite small detail that has my dirty bird brain on over-drive: Bi-sexual Jasper. He is a minor character. Just a friend/co-owner with brother Emmett in this story, but the one conversation about his sexuality is enough to make the girly bits applaud. (was HOPING for some Jasper sandwich at the club...just sayin')




"I'm not gay," he said casually. "I'm…versatile. It's all about the person for me. It transcends gender."

Emmett stared at his friend completely bug-eyed. This was obviously news to him.

"You're not into me, are you?" he blurted out.

Jasper threw his head back and roared with laughter.

"No!" he gasped and wiped his eyes. "No, I'm not into you, Em."

"Well, it's not that funny, is it?" Emmett said with a pout and crossed his arms.

"No, I'm sorry, buddy," Jasper said and gave him a pat on the back. "You're a very attractive man but you're really not my type."

"I tend to go for guys more like Edward actually," he added and smiled at me.


Yes, please and thank you. ;)

5 out of 5 Naughty Professor Ruler Spanks

Ok chaps. Let’s get cut to the chase from the get-go yes? This story is fucking hot. I.love.This.Bella. - I do NOT say that often. I think a topic we often discuss in our reviews and in our Pack discussions on stories, is how Bella is often a scared, insecure, inexperienced, sexually repressed, virgin. (although don’t get me wrong, I can enjoy many of those stories) and that can get tiresome. We at the pack are obviously women who know what we like and like to go get it. So it makes sense we are often frustrated by an adult Bella who yields completely to Edward and is always the one who is led into a sexual relationship blindly. Well its certainly not that way in this story.

This Bella? This Bella is independent, sexually assertive, fun-loving and is the one educating Edward, her university professor no less, on the ways of sexual pleasure. This Edward is a little bit naive and a little bit insecure but he is not a doormat or an idiot. He just needed someone who could properly awaken him, properly educate him and appeal to his dormant sexual preferences. The dates most people, including Edward thought suitable for a man like himself, never got him fired up and excited the way his student Bella does. Bella pushes his buttons in so many ways. It makes for an exciting and very erotic fiction.

But Bella - although she is very sexual and very skilled in getting what she needs sexually had her own fears and insecurities, although she functions extremely well with them. Edward however begins to draw her out, without either of them realising it, they begin to mean more to one another, and on a very nice twist - Edward begins to educate Bella on what more than sexual feelings can bring to a sexual relationship. I cannot wait to see where the author takes these two.

I adored the most recent chapters, including where Edward’s parents discover his relationship with Bella and all that occurs as Edward begins to realise the depth of his feelings for Bella, and begins to “own” those emotions. I love how Bella softens up whilst still remaining sexy and sexually adventurous and demanding. Their chemistry and hot adventures do not get weakened as they mean more to one another. Which is the way it should be, but often isn’t in fics.....

I seriously love this fic. Its cute but its also very very sexy, I love the way its played out and the real growth and development of the characters.

Five Naughty Professor Ruler Spanks out of five from me!

I’ve probably said it a million times in these reviews, but I love me some Geekward.

Well, here’s a switch.

I wouldn’t classify Professor Cullen as a “Geek” per se. He’s more an intellectual (but not snobby. Well, maybe a little snobby.), with a lack of social experience.

He prefers to spend time with his books then interacting with the world around him. Don’t misunderstand; he’s not socially inept in any way. I mean, the man can function in society, no problem. He’s just…naïve? Awkward? Inexperienced? And not just with his peers, but in the bedroom as well. Oh, he’s not a virgin, but he might as well as be. But we’ll get back to him.

And then there’s Bella. I, for the most part, don’t really like most Bella’s, but this one I love! Shocking, I know! What I like about her is that to Edward she appears hard and tough and a complete mystery. But us readers, we see that there is something more going on, that Edward might not be seeing. There’s a vulnerability to her that is completely endearing. There is a reason for the tough exterior, which really isn’t all that tough, that we are just getting into story wise. I, for one, can’t wait to see more of Bella’s back story. Like Canon Bella, she has a need to take care of those in her life. She would do anything for them, while keeping them at arms length.

Like my fellow reviewers, I love the growth that both Edward & Bella got through over the course of the story. Edward goes from repressed, completely proper and somewhat judgmental to someone that’s comfortable with his own sexuality, his sexual desires, owns his feelings for Bella and by all that becomes more confident in himself and maybe finally knows what he wants from life. It’s a slow, natural and realistic progression that he takes. It’s quite lovely.

Now, since the whole story is from Edward’s POV, we only see what he sees or doesn’t see as is the case sometime, Bella’s growth is a little harder to nail down. But it’s definitely there. Her standoffishness slowly dissolves and we can see her taking steps outside her comfort zone for Edward. There’s a yearning and utterly terrified tone to her sometimes. You can tell she wants what’s happening, but she’s so scared of it, she could bolt at anytime.

IMO, it’s a very difficult thing to balance the personal growth of the characters without them being fully self aware of it while progressing the story in a natural way and keeping it funny and fresh all at the same time. I think sheviking has done a brilliant job of this. No really, this story is beautifully written and told. And the smut isn’t so bad (i.e. FUCKING HOT) either.

One thing that I abso love about this fic is the use of inner monologue. I love it when it’s done right and not over used. sheviking knows what she’s doing in this regard. And just because I can’t resist, here’s my fav bit of inner monologue. It shows a funnier side to Edward that he doesn’t necessarily convey all that much or well.




How I am today, you ask? I'm great. Why? Because I am Isabella Swan's lover. I get to see her naked and everything. Oh, and did I mention that she wants me to tie her up and have sex with her? That's right. Because I am a very considerate lover. And I give her orgasms.


I guess what I’m trying to say is that I flove this fic and these characters. The story & the characters are endearing, funny, awkward, sexy & all around lovely. Can’t wait for more. I’m hooked!

Five Naughty Professor Ruler Spanks out of five from moi!



A few months ago, my good friend Nina (you may have heard of her before) challenged me to read a story. She has this unique ability to rec stories to me that I end up falling in love with (that’s you, M81170), so I trust her when she takes the time to pimp a fic to me. Not gonna lie, the concept of this story initially squicked me out. Big time. A college professor screwing his student? Ew. Had it been a teacher and a HS student, I wouldn’t have touched it with a 10 foot pole; that they are both consenting adults made it marginally better. As a nurse, I understand the inherent difficulties of falling for someone who is off limits--after all, I could lose my license for something like that. Nina being Nina, however, made me give this lovely little fic a go, and I’m so delighted that I did. I really didn’t want to love it, but sheviking won me over almost immediately.

Setting aside my distaste for/bias against a teacher/student relationship, regardless of age, I began to read. Professor Cullen is a man who is tightly wound, anally retentive (oh, be still my heart!!), and on the conservative end of the spectrum in manner of dress and lifestyle. He loves nothing more than a quiet night at home and an easy, predictable schedule. Bella is a beautiful, sexually confident student in his English class. She is brilliant, but gets under his skin. She interrupts him all the time, contradicts him, and challenges him. She wears heavy makeup and suggestive clothing. She flirts with him, like winking at him after she gives her opinion, or calling him “Edward” instead of “Professor Cullen,” both egregious errors in the Professor’s mind. In short, Bella infuriates Edward so much, he gets worked up about it outside of the classroom. Emmett, as Edward’s older, wiser, and much more experienced brother, makes the observation that if she makes him this passionately wound up, there has to be some genuine sexual tension there. Edward lets Emmett know--in no uncertain terms--that students are strictly forbidden, off limits, to their professors. Bella, at 21, is ten years younger than Edward. End of story.

Except that it isn’t the end of story, it’s the beginning of story! All it takes is one brief run-in with Bella at a bar, and Edward is sunk. Emmett coerces Edward to go out with him, to loosen up, and the two end up at the bar Emmett owns. When the boys get a look at our girls (naturally, Bella’s best friends are Rosalie and Alice), Emmett calls Edward’s bluff:




“That's Ms. Swan," I heard myself say, and instantly regretted it.

"The one in the red dress?" he asked incredulously. "Are you serious?"

I nodded.

"The annoying one who isn't your type? You are so full of shit, bro! You need to tap that, and then introduce me to her friend."


All it takes is Edward giving Bella a ride home from the bar, and then inviting him up to her room for “a drink.” Oh, and did I mention, Emmett almost needed to twist Edward’s arm to get him to drink one beer at the bar? Yeah, the poor dude is toast. Putty in her hands.

I’m not sure, exactly, what it is about a sexually confident Bella and sexually inexperienced Edward that gets my heart racing, but whatever it is, “Please sir, I’d like some more.” UNF. sheviking’s Edward is so awkward, you cringe for him. Bella is so seductive, she’s like a cat stalking her prey; not in a negative way, but in a sensual way. You can just imagine her circling around him, sizing him up, deciding how to pounce on him for the kill. Let me tell you, Bella knows how to make the kill. Edward never had a chance from the moment she set foot in his car.

Edward has only had a few sexual experiences in the past, and they haven’t been rewarding. His conclusion is that he is no good at sex, and has no confidence in his abilities as a result. All it takes is a sexually experienced Bella to turn him on, to let him know he’s skilled and has all the right equipment. She creates a sex monster, and you will be so glad she did. They have some pretty fuckhot sexxytimes, once she convinces Edward it’s okay to let go:




"Look Edward, I can see that you're nervous," she said and sat back up on the bed. "But you really shouldn't over think this. It's just sex. It's supposed to be fun, remember?"

Stay or go? Stay or go? Stay or go?

"You won't tell anyone?" I whispered.

She shook her head.

"I don't fuck and tell," she said with that lopsided grin of hers. "I swear."


The story continues on as Edward and Bella slip into a fuckbuddies relationship, fraught with the challenges of secrecy. As you can imagine, the situation becomes complicated as Edward starts to fall in love with Bella, who is only committed to a sexual relationship. When Edward messes up royally (I leave the specifics for the story so as not to be a spoiler), he is faced with losing Bella for good, and ends up conspiring with Emmett and one of his bartenders, Jasper.

Here is where I must digress for a moment, and make a little PSA. Even if I hated sheviking’s story, which isn’t possible, I would love her eternally for creating a bisexual Jasper who falls in love with “people, not genders.” It is so rare in fanfic to run across a smartly written homosexual, and even rarer to find one who is bisexual. Not only is Jasper bi, but he is perfectly, believably bi. For that alone, I want to lick sheviking up and down. When the three boys get a ghey makeover in order to spend the night at a ghey bar so Edward can get back into Bella’s good graces, sheviking has the ghey scene down spot-on. The entire bar scene had me smirking and giggling, it was just so real.

Towards the end of the chapters that have been posted thus far, sheviking throws in two things that will make me love her eternally--she pulls out the Bowie card (for those of you who are unaware, I am a HUGE Bowie freak). First, Edward takes out “The Hunger” to watch with Bella. Well, actually Bella watches, while Edward slowly seduces her. “The Hunger” is the most fuckhot, awesome vamp movie I’ve ever seen, with Bowie as a vamp, Catherine Deneuve as the vamp who turned him, and a much yonger Susan Sarandon. O. M. G. It’s too bad Bowie wasn’t younger when Twilight came out, because he would have made a fucking amazing Carlisle Cullen, IMHO. Rawr.

In Chapter 18, her loveliest, most touching chapter to date, Bella starts singing “Absolute Beginners” to Edward; while it isn’t my favorite Bowie tune, I still love it, and it is completely, perfectly appropriate for the situation. Not only that, but earlier in the story, Bella is listening to The Smiths, who also give me a major girlboner. sheviking, beware, ‘cos I’m about to fangirl all over your ass after those references alone.

Do yourselves a favor--don’t let bias get in the way of your reading this story. It pushes the boundaries of professional ethics, but only enough to give the story a salacious, yummy edge. Forbidden sex is almost always the hottest kind. And oh, do these two have hot sex. Lots and lots of hot sex. In fact, these two put “Lolita” to shame, and their love affair is so much kinder and more passionate than Humbert Humbert and his little tween conquest. My final word on the matter: UNG. Just so very UNG. *wipes drool off of keyboard nao*

5 out of 5 Naughty Professor Ruler Spanks

I’m not shy in my dislike for Manwhoreward and Virginella so imagine how thrilled I am to read a story where she’s sexually confident and owns her behavior. Add in a shy, not-to-experienced and slightly older Edward.

I usually keep away from Teacher/Student relations because it’s normally a turpentine moment for me but I admit I can tolerate when it’s in a collegiate setting.  The pacing of the story is what drew me in. The legitimate dislike and banter in the beginning was fantastic in setting the theme of the story and like Kitty said, the fact that it’s EPOV makes me love it that much more.

There are hilarious bits, sexy and steamy scenes and downright heartbreaking arguments, all of which are so well done that it’s seemless. It’s realistic in their plight and how the progression in their relationship from fuck buddy to... something more has made them both rethink everything they previously considered for their love lives.

Now for the smut. JFC. It’s hot. I realize that’s entirely too vague but my God, I almost think it’d be an injustice to spoil it. I admit that while the crazy, super sexy humpfests are great to read. The second to last chapter I think is my favorite in regard to lemons. While it starts off as cheeky fun in a role playing way but it evolves into their first realization that what they’ve been doing hasn’t just been ‘fuck buddying’ they’ve fallen in love. You do need to listen to “Flower Duet” and so help me, I may have read it twice because it was just that good.

The piece ended and she took a deep breath and looked up at me.




"It's so beautiful that it sort of hurts my heart," she whispered. "Do you know what I mean?"

I closed the distance between us and cupped her face in my hands.

"I feel that way when I look at you."

New tears filled her eyes and she blinked them away to gaze up at me. She took my hand and placed it over her galloping heart.

"I feel it too," she whispered.


All in all I adore this fic and I’m so happy we found it. :)  I look forward to diving into anything else sheviking writes.

5/5s

So I started reading The Education of Professor Cullen one night before bed, intent on just reading a chapter or two to get a feel for the fic.  I wound up staying up ALL NIGHT because I just had to read the next chapter!

I LOVE that Edward can’t stand her and that Bella just grins and winks at him *kitty squeeeee*

I also LOVE that it is all in EPOV!  I LIVE for EPOV!  *again with the kitty squeeeee*

Edward’s awkwardness and inner dialogue is so freaking hilarious…




"You've got great tits," I blurted out.

What did I just say?

I clamped my hand over my mouth as if that could somehow retract the statement I had just made. I felt horrible that I had said something so vulgar. It was such an Emmett remark to make and I hadn't realized that my brother had influenced me with his crass language. I looked at her and I was sure that she could see that panic in my eyes.

"Edward, calm down," she said with a small laugh. "You're not the first person who has told me that I have a nice rack."

There were so many little bits of banter between the two of them that had me cackling like a raving lunatic, because that’s how I roll…
"Say cock," she said and raised her chin slightly.

"What? No!"

"Pleeease?" she pouted.

"No," I said, but couldn't help smiling because frankly she looked adorable.

"Come on, it's just one little word. We'll call it your vocabulary lesson for the day," she coaxed.

"No, I am not saying that," I laughed.


Not to mention…




"You did great. I'll definitely give you a B+," she said. "It would have been an A if you had said 'cock'," she added with her lopsided grin.

"Cut me some slack. I did say, um, 'clitoris' at least," I said, wondering if this wouldn't go down in history as the strangest conversation I had ever had.

"Yes, and that was very 'Anatomy 101' of you, Edward," she teased mercilessly. "Say 'clit' and I'll upgrade you to an A."

I have always been an over-achiever.

"Clit," I whispered and proceeded to blush.

She looked at me and pressed her lips together to keep from laughing.

"Once more, with feeling," she said and raised an eyebrow challengingly.

I'll show her!

"Clit!" I yelled.


Heeeheeeeeee!!  God I’m such a dork!

Besides the goofy fangirl love I have for this fic, it really is well written.  They characters grow and evolve with each chapter as little bits of their little individual tics start to appear.  I could really quote the whole damned fic because I loved it THAT much!

I laughed and yes I cried because I’m a crier but with things like this…




"Edward?" she asked and furrowed her brow in confusion.

"Yes?" I said and brushed my lips against hers.
"That was the best…ever."

"Mmm," I hummed in agreement.

"Only…"

She hesitated and chewed on her bottom lip. I brushed her hair back and looked into her eyes.

"Tell me," I said softly. "What are you thinking?"

"We didn't just…fuck, did we?"

I shook my head slowly and my heart started pounding wildly in my chest. I had a feeling where this was going and I was both terribly nervous and excited about the outcome.

"And we didn't just have sex either, did we?" she asked and stroked my hair.

I shook my head again and caressed her cheek.

"We…"

She looked away and took a shaky breath. I saw a tear slide down her cheek and made her turn her face to look at me again. She looked scared, vulnerable and so tiny underneath me.

"Shh," I soothed. "You don't have to say anything else, sweetheart."

I kissed her lips softly three times and smiled at her.


I HAZ DA BIG TIMEZ SWOONZ!!!  The seriously enormous, I-just-can’t-be-grinning-bigger grin with a side of jumpy claps!

5 out of 5 Naughty Professor Ruler Spanks for this kitteh!

sheviking claims to be a 30-year old mom in Denmark who has taken American Studies, but I'm kinda secretly hoping she lives a lot closer than that.  Mostly, because I want to hug her to apologize for my short and lame review.  I've been going on and on these last few days on twitter over this story, and bullying people I know into reading it NOW because I absolutely love it and I never get to rec stuff to anyone, and yet due to circumstances and Comic Con, my LAME computer is totally wigging out on me and I have to keep this short.  There are lots of things I could quote from the story, like my other wonderful co-reviewers have obviously done, but I'll keep this review in my own words, partly because of computer lameness and partly because this multi-chapter fic has too many great moments to quote.

I began reading before Comic Con, and could not stop!  I could have easily been put off by the way the story opens, and maybe some people will be, but I was that weirdly dressed (albeit not sexy at all) college kid.  It almost felt a little cliched, and when Bella spends her time in class making eyes at Professor Cullen, I was frankly surprised to not see an "Indian Jones" salute with "Love" on one eyelid and "You" on the other.

Thanks for not doing that.

But what drew me in was this very compelling, self-assured, and sexually-aware Bella.  As a true hedonist, viewing sex only as a way to experience fun and pleasure, she was really delightful to read about.  As the story develops and we find the fragile woman hidden inside the fiercely independent shell, I was completely in irrevocably hooked!!  She not only likes Edward for his good looks, but she comes to realize she truly does like him for the person he is.

Oh, and what a person he is, too!  Like "Love in my box", this Edward is a quiet social recluse, not because he is awkward and socially stunted, but because he's incredibly shy, and like LiMB, he has an Emmett to help him experience the world.  The few intimacies Edward has had with women left him feeling deficient and self-conscious, manipulating him so deeply that he simply avoids dating all together by simply professing that he should be “looking for a particular type of woman.”

In a chance encounter outside of the classroom, Edward ends up offering Bella a ride home, where she offers him more than he ever expected.  He may be her teacher in the classroom, but she becomes his teacher in the bedroom, proving to him that he isn't nearly as clumsy and insufficient as he was lead to believe.  (Edward’s internal monologues are totally hysterical.)  Likewise, when Edward sees Bella without all her dark goth emo makeup, he finds (much to his surprise) that he finds her overwhelmingly attractive.

The first time Edward calls her beautiful, we begin to see the crack in Bella's facade, though.  She's stunned and scared and suspicious, and finally grateful; daring to believe that maybe Edward really could find her appealing though no one has ever said this to her before without wanting something in return.

Currently at seventeen chapters, we watch Edward's character develop through a majority of the story through his first person point of view, but in the last few chapters we begin to see what makes up the woman he's falling in love with.  Bella's parents died when she was young, and she was raised by her grandfather, "Pops."  When he dies, she's distraught and turns to the only person who has ever made her feel whole.

Just as we've enjoyed watching Edward become more confident and self-aware of what he truly wants in life, finding the courage to say what he feels (and do what he feels!  rawr!), we see our confident Bella take a nose-dive in her own courage, feeling truly alone in the world.  They say the student has truly learned when comes the day that he can apply his knowledge to help others.  If that is the case, Edward was an honor-roll student, taking everything that Bella has taught him to help her through her personal crisis, battling his own doubts along the way to help her see that she's not alone and that he never wants her to be alone again.

The tension in this story is carefully balanced between Edward’s dilemma of being Bella’s teacher, awkward blind dates set up by Esme, over-thinking the grade on Bella’s term paper, the death of Bella’s grandfather, and—newly introduced in the last chapter—Bella’s fright-and-flight response to realizing Edward is in love with her, making her question what she really feels about him.  I simply can’t wait to see more of this story.

This is my last review as an honorary perv, and I have to say, I've never ever read AH fic that wasn't recommended to me... until I had this experience.  It's been a mixed blessing (in terms of time commitments), opening my eyes to new stories, exposing me to more authors and new ideas, and has really reminded me that even if you love canon, you can enjoy a wide variety of things for their own value, above and beyond "Twilight."

Thank you, PPSS, for this experience.  I will treasure it always... and add new stories to my alerts! Squeee!

5 out of 5 Naughty Professor Ruler Spanks

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